morning pages

i have been writing each morning before i get out of bed as a way of purging and getting out my thoughts before the day begins. the artists way promotes this and people who do it have felt great benefits. the writing is not structured or planned and as you keep writing it gets deeper and deeper. i am always baffled with what comes out and i can see a pattern developing. my goal is continue this every morning in my journal. writing for me is easier and quicker than painting, i do love painting but sometimes the practical side to it is much harder. i need to set up my art things though and make a better effort at doing some everyday. my psychiatrist feels art and writing for me is the key to recovery along with the right balance of medication. sometimes i feel like i rattle with pills but without it i wouldn't be able to function.... dr treadwell said to me that my anxiety was 'unreal' and i guess the biggest thing for me been able to manage that the best i can. this is where art and writing come in along with yoga, distraction and gardening.

at the moment i am thinking about what will become of 2013 for me. in my journal i have been writing goals down... so watch this space.