life can certainly hand out the shit sometimes, can't it. after a challenging weekend and the beginning of a new medication, our family had some hard to handle news too- devastating in fact. today my body and mind feels like it has been pulled over the coals and i have found myself just walking around and around the house not knowing what to do. with exams looming and the stories going on in my mind, it just seems too much. i know feeling positive and looking at the bright side is important but it is just too hard at the moment. i often think is god was 'real' or if he existed he would not hand out the punishments and make people suffer over and over again. i have not felt like posting, drawing, painting or writing but today i made myself pick some flowers and pick up a pencil as i cried. it is amazing what comes out and how it makes you look at things. i must try to remember it is not my fault, i have not caused this, i need to keep feeding my body and that it is ok to ask for help.....its going to be a bumpy ride and we all need our strength.
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