life feels a little bit hard at the moment and i am trying to think of the best way forward. why is it that sometimes the only way forward is the hardest way? janie described yesterday what it is like for someone who hears 'voices'.... it is like wear big headphones all day and trying to go about your normal day with all the noises of everyday life still happening. anorexia voices are constant, loud, intrusive and distracting.  they are mean, nasty and belittling. they are awful. at the moment the voices are stronger and it is hard to concentrate on the things going on around me. the big issue is the more you listen to them the louder they get. it is at times like this, it just feels too hard. why was i chosen for this path?

i would love to lose my headphones....